WHAT IS YOUR ASK?

(Also, a gift for you)
 
Today is 11/11. I don’t know if that actually means anything. I like to choose to believe that, sure, why not? Why not look for reasons to believe in magic?
 
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My ask today, on this 11/11 portal, is this:

 
  • May I be free and clear of the muck and confusion and complications that override my natural true voice. 
  • May I act when inspiration strikes, and allow what needs to be said, shared, created to flow out of me and my heart without obstructions or barriers.
  • May I receive confirmation in many ways of the magic and benevolence of the world and universe around me.
  • May I show up each day and moment as a contribution to myself, my loved ones, those unknown to me, and the planet.
  • May I trust that everything is happening in exactly the right way at exactly the right time.
  • May I allow for space and stillness to connect with the sacred and divine.
  • May I be at peace in all things.
 
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The inspiration for this ask, and for this format, came from the following:
 
This morning, like every morning this week, I was wide awake at 4am. Partly from jet lag, and partly from all the energy that has been kicked up this week.
 
Instead of choosing to go back to sleep, I chose to follow a vein of inspiration that was flowing through me.
 
In 2009, in the midst of some of my worst anxiety and depression, I discovered metta-karuna- a loving-kindness practice. I both desperately wanted it to work, and also thought it was completely silly. But I practiced it, day in and day out, and it is one of the things that got me through some of my darkest hours.
 
This morning I pulled out that practice. It is part of a larger Buddhist teaching, and I am by no means an expert on it. I may not even have it “right”. But I know that this version of it has helped me many many times over the years, and I wanted to share it with you.
 
In this loving-kindness practice, you first ask for yourself-
May I be happy. May I be peaceful. May I be safe from harm… and so on.
 
And this may be enough for today. For this month. For this year.
 
Directing loving-kindness toward yourself is powerful and courageous.
 
If you want to go further, the second step is to direct it toward people who are close to you, people you love and care for.
 
Thirdly, toward people you don’t know well and have no real feelings toward either way (grocery store checkout people, neighbor who bikes to work, etc.)
 
Finally, toward people you have negative feelings toward, or people who have wronged you or caused you suffering in some way.
 
Today I chose to focus simply on myself and those I love.
 
The practice ebbs and flows.
The most important thing is to direct loving-kindness toward yourself first, foremost, and always.
 
The practice I used is transcribed here, and if you would like to listen to it as an audio, click the link at the end of the article. I recorded it this morning and it feels important to share as widely as possible today.
 
All my love to you <3
 
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Loving-Kindness Practice:

 
May I be happy.
May I be peaceful.
May I be safe from harm.
May I enjoy happiness and the root of happiness.
May I experience ease and well-being in body, mind, and spirit.
 
May I be free from suffering.
May I hold myself with softness and care.
May I be free from suffering and the root of suffering.
May I be free from the suffering caused by greed
May I be free from the sufferings caused by anger
May I be free from the suffering caused by shame
May I be free from the suffering caused by confusion
May I be free from the suffering caused by guilt
May I be free from the suffering caused by fear.
May I experience ease of body, mind, and spirit.
May I respond to suffering with compassion.
 
May I remember my consciousness is much vaster than this body.
May I accept my pain, without thinking it makes me bad or wrong.
May I accept my joy, without thinking it makes me bad or wrong.
May I be open to the unknown.
May I experience ease and well-being in body, mind, and spirit.
 
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Repeat as often as you like, and as often as needed.
 
 

Loving-Kindness Practice Meditation Audio

Source: I originally found this in a Yoga Journal article years ago, and have since studied other variations. I don’t have the exact article anymore, but I want to thank deeply whoever it was that wrote this, and whoever it was that chose to publish it. Not to mention the lineage that has passed this on for thousands of years. I don’t know who to credit, but I honor them and it deeply. This practice is powerful and amazing.